Greatest Film Of All Time

The Shawshank Redemption. Last 3 years, when everyone is crazy about Prison Break, first thing came to mind, The Shawshank Redemption. After years and years, I never get bored watching it all over again. It even ranked among Greatest Film of All Time. The movie written and directed base on Rita Hayworth and Shawshank Redemption by Stephen King. Of course the book more detail than the movie. I’ve read the book as well. Cool. Stephen King is a genius to write such a story. :)

Some lines narrated by Morgan Freeman.

"I have no idea to this day what those two Italian ladies were singing about. Truth is, I don’t want to know. Something are best left unsaid. ……. Singing something so beautiful that can’t be expressed in words that make your heart ache because of it…. "

Below is my handwritten "Life is wonderful" while waiting for my 3D model to load. :p I wrote it down cause I keep on listening to Jason Mraz's Life is wonderful. :D The small love is some image added from my phone camera. :p

Good day everyone. XOXO! :)

How Do I Describe MY Day Last Week? :)

I'm not sure was it last week or past 2 weeks when we're out of electricity for few times. For our department, we can't do our job if we're out of electricity. We even provided with a back up power supply each for such case. So, everytime electricity was out of a sudden, we still had few minutes to save all the works.

So, below picture is my stupid sketches while waiting for the time to pass by. Lols. I've been addicted to honey lately and doing a research on my own what is the benefits of honey. There is one article asking, why honeycomb was shaped into a hexagon? Engineers and architects out there, mind to explain why? :p Owh, please ignore the ugly creature sketched below the so called honeycomb and yes, the jawi word as well. It was my attemp of writing my name in Jawi letters. I guess it as wrong. :p

Last Friday, after work, I went to Pasar Malam. Actually I hate that place because it's very hard to find a parking place and it's crowded. But I already promise my student that I'll bring this home made keropok. I don't want to disappoint them so just take a chance to go over there and end up buying myself a fish for dinner as well.

After Pasar Malam, I drove back. But at the junction to go to my house, I made up my mind to drive a little bit further. It's kind of nice, drive slowly and listen to a song in my car. Drive until almost the end of Miri. If I drive a little bit more, I'll reach Brunei. Haha. Not that I can't go since I have my passport with me at the moment but I'm not crazy enough to continue the journey to Brunei. Lols. Below picture taken in the middle of my drive. :p The view was nice. Too bad that I don't dare to stop by the beach to take some other shot. On the other side of the picture is a sea. The view is so damn nice. I'm lost in it's beauty for a moment.

After a drive around, went back and cook rice, had a bath, wash some cloth and had my dinner. Spend the whole night reread Satu Janji by Ramlee Awang Murshid. Reading it make me crave for Nasi Beriani and Roti Canai. Lols. You read the book then you'll know the reason why. :p Sleep late and wake up late as well since it's Saturday. At 3.00, drive to tuition center and there I'll be teaching. :) Any suggestion of a present I need to give to my best student? :p Oh ya, and they're so happy that I bring the Keropok along.

Hmmm.... I only take fried rice before I go for my tuition class. So, after the class, I'm so damn hungry that I can eat a human (ok I exaggerated) :p . Actually I save it for a birthday party held by my friend, Siti. :) It's her birthday last Saturday. I teased her, "Dah tua pun mauk sambut birthday juak ka?" Lols. She just came back from KL. She moved to KL last year after getting married. Her husband have a clinic there. Yes, she'a a wife of a Doctor. :)

Turn out to be that night, the birthday party isn't for her alone. It's a double birthday party for her nephew as well. Owh, he's so cute dressed in a bumblebee suit. Lols. Fancy cakes. :) Too bad Siti is too busy to bake a cake her own. You should try her cheese cake. It's the best in the world. Hehe. But she's not as pro as her mum. Haha. Refer to some old post then you'll see the amazing wedding cake made by her mum.

This is Shahiran. Happy birthday cute baby. :) I don't have his picture for that night. Below pic is taken during last year's Hari Raya. He's bigger now, but still as cute as ever. :p

And happy birthday Siti. But I wonder, why it's Nora who wear the party hat. Lols. :p

Below is the food for that night. Yummy yummy yummy.... I'm hungry when I look at the picture now. BBQ Chicken and fish. Grilled crab meat, grilled prawn, sausage, rice and noodle. There's some more other dishes that I can't fit into a picture and can't take so much picture since everyone seems to be so hungry and packed around the food. :p

My empty plates. Lols...

Camwhoring time. Hehe. Taking pic with Nora. :p

That is Nora's arm infront of me. Lols.

Me and Baby Pan. Haha. That's what we called him. His name is Zarfan. :p He's a big bro of Shahiran. :)

Owh, this picture break my heart. Lols. Hanif and Siti Fatimah. They're Siti's niece and nephew as well. Don't have any idea why they don't want to join the group photo and sit there all by themselves. Haha. Hanif is a big boy now. I still remember last time when he's smalled. He's so cute. So did Siti Fatimah.

On Sunday, I go for facial and end up extended my session into Hot Stone Massage. :p They had a half price promotion so I go for it. Besides, almost all beautician in the beauty center knows me. Regular customer. :p They will give a call if I didn't come over for quite sometimes. I like it there. It feels like a friend is helping you to do the facial unlike some other place, I don't really feel welcome.

It's the best thing to do for relaxation. Maybe I'll go for it every once a while. And it's good for health. Refer here.

Hmm.... after this post, it may take sometimes for me to update. I'll be damn busy in few weeks time. I've got new project to handle. Then I'll crack my head. :)

Good day everyone. :) XOXO.

Inspiration & Story Of Yesterday :)

On my last post, I got a comment from someone who lives far in Philippine. Below is what she commented on the last post.

Then I check on her site. When I first look at it, honestly, I think it was the most beautiful site I’ve ever seen. It's not just the beauty of pictures in the site, but something she did which is really inspiring, Pens of Hope. I just couldn’t find the right words to describe how much I’m inspired by this effort. I mean, who would’ve thought of distributing pencils and sort of stationary for those children who’s in need. Looking back at my old times when I was still a kid, I’d refuse to use a normal pencil because of I do use it; I hate the fact that I need to sharpen it several times a day. Little that I know there are some other children in the world who don’t even have a pencil of their own. It ripped my heart into pieces looking at bunch of pencils and stationary send to Pens of Hope. How much courage do you have to do such things, where you don’t accept money but only stationary instead? It was a pure voluntary work. Picture below was a print screen from Miss N's site. I even paste Pens of Hope badge in my blog now.

Do check on her site and I bet you’ll be amazed yourself. Just look at those beautiful pictures. I do really wish I can be there myself.

P/S : Mr. Pink Shirt With Red Heart, here's the update. Lol.. :p. I'm not changing the subject this time. :p

And here is a story of yesterday, that’s what I want to call it even though it was a weekend story. Hehe. I plan a better entry for that, so here’s the brief one. Normally Saturday I went for tuition class. Back from teaching, I went for swimming. After swimming, spent sometimes at Miri City Fan for Miri Live Music watching this girl live band singing. They had a superb voice. :) On Sunday, went for a movie with Alvin. We go for Transformers : Revenge of The Fallen. I’m so happy because I got the chance to meet my crush, Bumblebee. But I’m so frustrated with audio system of the Cineplex. Why can’t they provide a better cinema here in Miri?

The movie finish at 2.30pm and we straight away go for lunch since both of us haven’t had lunch yet. We’re extremely hungry but still need to wait for a long queue for almost half an hour. When you’re hungry, your brain might not functioning really well, at least that what I thought. Why I’m saying that? That is because I start to ask stupid question and Alvin give me a look ‘are you out of your mind?’. Guess what I asked him. Lol. Out of a sudden I came out with this question,

“Big Mac is made of chicken or beef?”

lols… With a horror face, he replied me,

“I’m not going to answer that question.”

I laugh and told him,

“I’m so hungry, now I start to ask stupid question.”

Then he told me,

“It’s like you’re asking me, Spicy Chicken McDeluxe is made of chicken or beef.”

Haha. Ok, I admit it was a stupid question. Haha. When it came to our turn to order, we both order Big Mac. He even adds another Fillet O’Fish and I add extra Sundae Chocolate for myself. Stuff our stomach until full and touring the shopping mall until late evening. After a quite sometimes tour, then we both headed back home.

Hmm… I guess that’s all for yesterday story. Haha. Nothing much. :)

Good day everyone. XOXO. :)

I'm Always Proud To Be A Sarawakian :)

I’m always proud to be a Sarawakian. No matter how bad the condition or how hard it is to live here or how far it is from development, I’ll always proud to be Sarawakian. The fact that I came from a very rural area of Sarawak make me even more proud. It held high my pride as a Sarawakian. :)

Here’s some introduction about my races. I’m a mixture of Iban, Kiput and Maloh. You might have heard of Iban. It held the largest population in Sarawak. And Iban language is the easiest language to be learned because pronunciation of its words doesn’t differ much from Malay Language. If you come to my home town, don’t be surprise to hear all Chinese shop owner speak better Iban than Malay Language.

Kiput? Maloh? Even if told a Sarawakian themselves, they might have said they never heard of this race before. But if you’re from Baram, then you’ll know how Kiput Language sounds. But it held a very small population. I inherit Kiput bloodline from my late grandmother (my father’s side). She’s originated from Kuala Tutoh, Baram. Too bad I never had been there. Maloh is another rare population originated from West Kalimantan. To make thing easier sometimes I just mention I’m a mixture of Iban, Orang Ulu (Kiput) and Indonesian (Maloh) because if out of all I’m saying that I’m Iban mix Kiput mix Maloh, they will ask me, “what is that races?”. They’re referring to Kiput and Maloh, then I will have to explain that these races held a very small population in Sarawak and it’s almost gone. Then some of them will call me an endangered species. Lol. I like that. Like Faisal’s Blog, be extraordinary. Hehe. Oh well, I’m an endangered species. Lol.

Apart from that, there’s something that I need to admit. I can’t speak Kiput and Maloh. I can only speak Iban. Too bad. But I can understand Kiput. Don’t try to say something bad about me in Kiput. Lol. But you can say that in Maloh. Haha. If you stand next to me and have a conversation in Maloh, I’m sure I don’t even know that you’re speaking Maloh. That’s the weird thing because I recognize lots of native language in Sarawak but never can indentify how does Maloh sounds like. I can recognize Kelabit, Kayan, Kenyah, Kedayan, Melanau, Bidayuh and Berawan, but never know Maloh. Too bad.

Here is a brief explanation of Kiput:

Kiput is a Malayo-Polynesian language spoken by about 450 people in Northern Sarawak. Yep, just imagine how small the population is. The entire language community reportedly resides in a single long-house known variously as Long Kiput, Long Tutoh, or Kuala Tutoh, located on the main branch of the Baram River about one kilometer from its junction with the Tutoh in Sarawak's Fourth Division. (Credit to Robert Blust )

Apart from that I’m an endangered species, (LOL) I came from a very unique place of Sarawak. I came from Marudi. It is parts of Baram. You can go there via boat, flight (twin otter) and off-road. :) By boat you’ll need to go Kuala Baram from Miri. The wharf stated right below Asean Bridge which connecting Miri and Brunei. Picture below is the pic I took during a trip via boat. During a very dry season, you can count a lot of crocodile sunbath on the river bank. Haha. It will take more than 2 hours trip via boat. You can sleep or read or counting crocodile along the way. :p I always spend the first hour reading. The second hour sleeping and the extra time; counting crocodile. :p

Sometimes, I don’t like a long trip. It was the time when I really miss my family and can’t wait to be home, the I take an early flight from Miri. 7.00am in the morning. Before 7.30am, I already home. Haha. It only takes 20 minutes. I still remember when Air Asia still taking care of the flight service, the journey is even shorter where I can reach Marudi in 15 minutes. In that case, I can go to Marudi town and have my breakfast. :)

During dry season, Marudian prefer off-road. :) Why I call it off-road? Because if you’re not good enough, you won’t pass the road. Very high hill. Muddy, slippery and most of time, the car will drift. Yes, as you can see in Tokyo Drift. (Ok, I exaggerated a bit :p) But don’t ever dare to drive over during rainy season or else you will end up like below picture. Owh, that’s my brother in law and my nephew. They stuck in the road. I mean it, IN the road. And that happen to a 4-wheel drive. The get my brother’s car sunk into the mud. Euwww… Don’t ever imagine how it will go with normal car.

Twice a year, Baram Regatta will be held in Marudi. It happens last year. Finally I get the chance to see it again after 12 years. Not that I never back home but every time the function held, I was away from home. After SPM, I fly to Kuching for Matriculation where I flunk almost every subject. :p In the second semester of my matriculation, I’m expecting for a repeat in Labuan Matriculation. Too bad I passed with an embarrassing pointer. I’m surprise to know back then that I’m going to further my study in Engineering field with such pointer. Ok, back to Baram Regatta. Here’s some picture. Guys, watch out for those pretty ladies for Miss Baram Regatta. *wink wink*

This is Julies Lucas. She crowned as Miss Baram Regatta that night. Bravo!!! She deserved it. :)

This is my little princess, my niece. She’s striking a pose with Miss Baram Regatta’s tiara. My sister working backstage that night, so I get the privilege of going there and get myself a better shot. Shot with those pretty ladies as well. :p

This is a bunch of dancers. I'm not kidding, they're going to dance in the middle of the river on that sampan. Just look at how big the river and the cloth they're wearing. I can't never imagine myself wearing that cloth and perform a tradisional dance on a boat.

Pretty ladies. :)

Veronica. Second runner up.

Crowning Julies.

Me and my sister. I always envy her hair. She doesn't need to colour her hair and she have that colour.

It's raining outside. I'm hiding behind my sister's back.

I take this pic before the pageant start, with Julies and her sister. Forget what's her name. :p

I don't know what's her name. Yes, she's an English girl and she play sape (traditional music instrument). Pretty isn't she? :)

This is Jane. She's the first runner up. She's my junior during primary school. Hmm...

And this is first runner up wanna be... Lolssss.. :p

Last weekend, Tomy held a BBQ at Taman Selera with his housemates. There I go chit chat with them for a while. Tomy, Audra, Chris and Ricky. Watching those rich man fly their glider along the beach. Hmm..

And below is the pics of my students. :)

My unfinish paper model of Kame House. Huhu.

Went funfair. Huh... Waste of money. :(

I get a comment old friend in Friendster. She thought I'm married. No I'm not. Haha. And the one with me there is my nephew. Haha.

I think this the longest post and has the most pics on it. Good day everyone. XOXO. :)

Does The Big Sunglass Can Hide The Pain In Her Eyes?

Or... did the smile can fake how much she wanted to cry?

I Had A New Crush :)

Ever since I watched the first movie, I've been falling in love with him. Let me introduce you to my new crush. And last Saturday, when I'm down to earth (don't wanna talk about it), I called Alvin and he picked me up where then we go to the beach. After quite sometimes, then I can calm myself down. **Thanks**

Then this is how he get my spirit back, he talk about paper modeling. Sounds cool isn't it. With excitement, I ask him, do they have BUMBLEBEE??? He said, "Yes, they had it." There he told me there's this guy who made BUMBLEBEE out of KFC box. COOL. CHECK IT OUT HERE. Even the pics above is from his site. Credit to this guy. He's COOL.

So, I don't mind that I'm losing someone now. All that I care is, I love BUMBLEBEE. :) Maybe I should think of building my own Bumblebee soon. My dear Bumblebee. :D

I love Bumblebee. :)

Light Of A Start

So I see I've been missing for quite sometimes. Er... Where should I start? Ok before that, this is a tribute to someone who remind me of how long I've been missing... Haha. But it doesn't mean that I stop following those blogs I've been following. :)

P/S : Ary, I'm back... Hahaha.. Kamek sikda pegi sine2... Ctok2 jak juak... Haha... :p

Ok, here it is. It's Gawai Holiday early if June and I'm on leave until 3rd. By end of May, I cancelled my tuition class and the tuition center need to find a replacement teacher. So, 30th of May, which is Saturday, I wait for the arrival of my family from Marudi. My parents came by boat, where my brother and my sister came by their own car. For the first time, the house damn full and crowded. I could've never been happier to see it full. You'll understand why I'm so happy if everyday you come back home, all that you can see is an empty house.

After lunch, I have to drive back to my mum's kampung for she want to celebrate Gawai there. So, there I drag my nephew for I don't feel really convenient alone back in long house. It's a long story make short, by 1st of June, we drove back to Miri. And my life getting bussier. Help my brother to clear my house. Cleaning and painting. Huhuhu... Well, since now I have my own house, my sis going to rent out her house. Kind of good investment. Rather than MLM bussiness. Haha. I'm still amused by Ary's latest post. It kind of funny. Haha. But honestly, I use Amway product myself. Not for real purpose of "cepat kaya" scheme, but it's a trusted brand and I found myself satisfied with the product. Haha. Disclaimer: This is a personal opinion, have no intention to promote any product or whatsoever. :)

Erm, one more reason why I've been missing for quite sometimes is my SE's phone battery got problem and I need to replace a new battery. So, I'm out of equipment to capture nice pic. :( And since the phone out of function, I'm back with this classical black and white Nokia phone. :D (Ok, I capture this pic via my SE phone. Hehe. Now I've got it a new battery. :p )

Ok, back to something more serious. During this few days of "missing", I just lots of thing a thought. Maybe it's about time to transform myself into someone better. Not that I'm saying I'm an evil witch but I just miss lots of thing in my life. I just want to live a peachful life.No more too much fun. Concentrate more on God. Concentrate more on paying my car and my house. Concentrate more on saving money to renovate my house.Concentrate more on how to decorate my house.Hmm... I guess now my life dedicate more to myself, my family and my property, things that I get on my own. I work for it, even though it's not a Mercedes or BMW. Oreven though it's only a small house and not a big bungalow or a mansion, stillI'm proud of it. At least I get it on my own.

As for now, I just want to give myself a chance to start a better life. Such as below complicated drawing.... #^&*((#@#+ ZZzzzzzzzzzzzzz....

Selalu Mengalah - 17

jelaskan padaku isi hatimu
seberapa besar kau yakin padaku
untuk tetap bisa bertahan denganku
menjaga cinta ini

pertengkaran yang terjadi
seperti semua salahku

reff:
mengapa selalu aku yang mengalah
tak pernah kah kau berpikir
sedikit tentang hatiku

mengapa ku yang harus selalu mengalah
pantaskah hatiku
masih bisa bersamamu




***aku mengalah untuk kesekian kalinya... Tak mengapa, asal kau bahagia...

Kuching - Miri Route For Al-Hussaini

Ok, this post dedicatet to Al-Hussaini for asking me to draw a map on how to go to Miri from Kuching via driving. Oh dear, I'm not an artist to be frank. So here's what I get from the net. We use to do this last time back in Hengelo. Let's say we want to travel from each place to each place, we google it. Credit to google map. :) It help! Below is the one that I print screen from google map. Hey Saini, go to the link and study the map by yourself cause it's so detail if zoom the map and you can see almost every road. :) And it have a direction like the one at the second pic.

So Ary, amacam? Bawa la tuan sang oren dan sang oren sekali tour satu Sarawak. Hehe. Hussaini di point A dan Mysterious Witch di point B. =P

Hmmmm.... google the direction on google map really remind me of our so call plan to tour Europe which end up going only few places only. We don't even finish touring the whole Netherland. *sigh* Well, it's ok then, even though I seem to lose the oppotunity back then, who knows, next time I'll get something better. :)

So Hussaini, bila gik mauk embak sang oren ko ya datang Miri? Lalu Brunei, balit Lawas dan jalan gi KK. Hehehe...

A Line From Saus Kacang

A quick update for today. Caught up with a movie by Ashraf Sinclair and his wife, Bunga Citra Lestari, Saus Kacang. There was one line that I really feel like want to blog about. That line was so meaningful. Maybe not for everyone, but for me, it do!

"untuk mengerti orang yang enggak punya perasaan, kita juga enggak boleh punya perasaan"

Have You Ever Really Loved A Woman?

To all guys out there, have you ever really loved a woman in your life? Have you ever think of how much she sacrifice everything in her life, just to be near to you? Just to have a look. Just to hear your voice. It doesn't matter if you're mad at her, as long as she can be near you. As long as she can see you there. That was more than enough to her.

Tell me, have you ever really love a woman? How much? How far? Or you'll give it up, just like that....

To really love a woman

To understand her - you gotta know it deep inside

Hear every thought - see every dream

N' give her wings - when she wants to fly

Then when you find yourself lyin' helpless in her arms

You know you really love a woman

When you love a woman you tell her that she's really wanted

When you love a woman you tell her that she's the one

she needs somebody to tell herthat it's gonna last forever

So tell me have you ever really - really really ever loved a woman?

To really love a woman

Let her hold you - til ya know how she needs to be touched

You've gotta breathe her - really taste her

Til you can feel her in your blood

N' when you can see your unborn children in her eyes

You know you really love a woman

When you love a woman you tell her that she's really wanted

When you love a woman you tell her that she's the one she needs somebody to tell her that you'll always be together

So tell me have you ever really - really really ever loved a woman?

You got to give her some faith - hold her tight

A little tenderness - gotta treat her right

She will be there for you, takin' good care of you

Ya really gotta love your woman...

Then when you find yourself lyin' helpless in her arms

You know you really love a woman

When you love a woman you tell herthat she's really wanted

When you love a woman you tell her that she's the one she needs somebody to tell herthat it's gonna last forever

So tell me have you ever really - really really ever loved a woman?

Just tell me have you ever really, really, really, ever loved a woman?

You got to tell me

Just tell me have you ever really,really, really, ever loved a woman?

Back Stab

To all backstabber out there, just a mere reminder, I'm strong enought to endure it. Go on, backstab even more. I'll always pray for you no matter what. Because you're not the one who's in charge of my happiness. I do. One fine day, the truth will reveal.

P/S : I made the lousy drawing myself via paint. I know it's ugly but at least it shows what I want everyone to see. Just a matter of perception.

Friendship Award From Ary =)

The RuLes:
1.Place the award logo in one post as soon as you receive it.
2.Do not forget to mention who gives you the award.
3.Answer the award's question by writing the reason why you love blogging.
4.Tags and distribute this award to as many friends as you like.
5.Do not forget to place their links in your post.

1. Yep, that's the logo... Really appreciate it. It make me wonder how really simple thing can make your day and make you happy. :)

2. Who gave me the award????? He is someone I never met. He is someone I barely knew and he is someone who I can call friend now. :) *make it a dramatic introduction* He is

ARY =)

3. I love blogging because I'm happy when someone read my post. I love blogging because through this, I found lots of new friends.

4. Ary, you deserve the award back, and I already link you to it.... And for now, this award distribute to all friends and fellow blogger who always be there to read my post and spend sometimes to write a comment here. No words can express how much I appreciate it. Thanks a zillionssss... =)

Here is my fellow blogger friend that I want them to have the award as well....

- al-hussaini (been knowing him since matriculation 2001, back in Kuching, then further it into uni year and we're in the same class, btw, I still remember our matrix number is next to each other cause we registered together.. haha... aku gik ada simpan gambar ko ngan siti nok aku curi dari frenster ko ya, so engkah la balit sitok.. hahaha)

- Mr. Willie (never met him but he's so nice that he put my blog link in his blog roll and always spend sometimes to drop by and left a comment. Below is a snapshot of his blog I took last time. :))

- Jeoffry Nasir (first time he drop by my blog, he called me a Quilting Lady. Haha, funny Jeof. And it's ironic we never met each other even though we live in the same city. :p And Jeof, you know what, it's funny how I force my friend Michelle to put the farewell card into your house letter box. hahaha. I told myself that I must put the card in the box by that day or else he won't received the card for months since he's off to KL to further study. Jeof, how's KL? Hehe...)

Jeof, why hide your face behind the card? haha...

- Kaisertan (Keep On Fighting) - He's my classmate for one year during matriculation. We've been friend since then. I still remember last time, I do really need help but there's no one to help me. Andappreciate it with a thick face, I asked from him and he helped me. That is one thing I will never ever forget about him, even till the day I die. He's a real friend even though almost never met at all after matriculation. But dear God, please bless him, he's a friend through thick and thin. No words can express how much I appreciate his help during that time. What is thing, let's just keep it until here. I need help and he's there. Thanks. No awards in this world can repay how much I .

- Venez - He's an Airforce Officer who love paintball and he's someone I never met. One thing funny about him, he keep on calling me dude where most of the time I correct him that I'm a girl. Haha. He had it in his mind that is very rare for a girl to play paintball since I ask him hell lots of question regarding paintball. (I think he got bored I asked way too much, hahaha) But thanks Venez, you're so kind for answering all my question. You deserve this award. :) And thanks for placing my link in your blog roll. :)

- Casper - She's someone I never met as well. But she's very kind for always come and drop by my blog and left some comments.. Thanks Casper, even though I never met you, I know you're so damn nice. :) Really hope one day we can meet. :) I hope you don't mind I take below pic from your blog. :) Casper is in the middle. It's Sandra on the left and Prinda on the right side. Sandra and Prinda is my ex room mate back in Kuching matriculation. :)

- Michelle - She's my ex room mate back in Kuching Matrix last time. I'm touched she still remember what is the name I used to be called. :p

And this award is for some non-blogger friend as well. :)

- Siti Paspa - She's my housemate last time before she get married. I miss you so much.

- Qorieyanti - I love you babes. You deserve this award. :) If you read this, I love you. Haha.

- This is for Ing Ing as well. She's so nice. We're from the same astrological star, so we're so similar to each other in attitude. Haha. You rocks babes.. :)

- This is Lily (I'm not sure the spelling is correct) - She's gorgoues and you should meet her in real life. She's so much prettier in person. Thanks for being a good friend even though this is just our first time met. Ignore my pale face in the pic with Lily and Ing2 cause they already wash away my make up since I come the class where Lily teaching facial and make up as part time. That day, Ing2 don't have a model so she put me on the bed and wash my face. Haha.

- Here is a tribute to my another 2 good friends, Alvin and Khairul. No words can express how much I appreciate you guys as a friend. Alvin, you've listen to my hearts so much. Thanks for always supporting me even though deep down, you and I know what I'm doing is just not right. But I promise you, I'll get myself out of this gutter myself. Picture below is our first time in Alvin's new car. Hehehe. City baru ooooo... :p

- Never forgetting niece, Priscilla and her boyfriend Max. They somehow always make my day. I love both of you. Thanks for being such a friend.

Sorry if I miss out anyone... I'm just human. :) To all my friends out there, this award is for you. Sincerely yours, Mysterious Witch Of The East a.k.a Light of Beginning. =)

Peach. =)

XOXO.....

I Told You So - Carrie Underwodd & Randy Travis

I'm not really in the mood to blog lately. There's so much things happen and somehow I really feel tired. I feel pathetic. I feels like I want to give up after all. And I had in mind that I wanna stop blogging. What say you? :( Maybe, enough is enough.

Suppose I called you up tonight and told you that I loved you

And suppose I said "I wanna come back home".

And suppose I cried and said "I think I finally learned my lesson"

And I'm tired a-spendin' all my time alone.

If I told you that I realised you're all I ever wanted

And it's killin' me to be so far away.

Would you tell me that you loved me too and would we cry together?

Or would you simply laugh at me and say:

"I told you so,

oh I told you so

I told you some day you come crawling back and asking me to take you in

I told you so, but you had to go

Now I found somebody new and you will never break my heart in two again".

If I got down on my knees and told you I was yours forever

Would you get down on yours too and take my hand?

Would we get that old time feelin', would we laugh and talk for hours

The way we did when our love first began?

Would you tell me that you'd missed me too and that you'd been so lonely

And you waited for the day that I return.

And we'd live in love forever and that I'm your one and only

Or would you say the tables finally turned?

Would you say:

"I told you so, oh I told you so

I told you some day you come crawling back and asking me to take you in

I told you so, but you have to go

Now I found somebody new and you will never break my heart in two again".

"Now I found somebody new and you will never break my heart in two again".

Paint Ball Game In Town

When I wake up this morning, I feel like I’m going to collapse again because there was pain all over my body. Haha. Not that I get shot anywhere on my body but I guess my muscle was shocked when out of a sudden I do this kind of activity. Just imagine I’ve been standing for 3 hours teaching Add Math in the morning. I wake up 8.30 in the morning and prepare to go to class which going to start at 9.30 and end at 12.30. Then going back home to eat the prepared food which I can’t finish, not even half. (lost appetite this 2 days, even the night before, I don’t have my dinner. Hmmm…. And yet I need to go to play paintball.

My wrist. See the bruise??? :p

I'm outside of the field.

Wuwu... It's LEVI's.... Warrgggghhh

My jacket and some left over paint.



I got shot at my thumb, minor bleeding.


Before the game, candid by Alvin. HUH???

Hilarious and fun. :) Oh ya, I got shot at the corner of lips as well. Wonder how the pallet get through my mask and hit my lips. Wuwuwu... But I didn't realize it until I look at the mirror and there was bruise at the corner of my lip. Lipstick eh.. haha.

Gitar Berbunyi - Saloma

Gitar berbunyi malam sunyi

Aku menyanyi seorang diri

Bulan mengambang cahaya terang

Walau seorang hatiku riang

Angin berhembus bawa salam

Abang di sana rindu dendam

Pandanglah bulan di langit biru

Hilangkan dendam serta rindu

Gitar berbunyi malam sunyi

Aku menyanyi seorang diri

Bulan mengambang cahaya terang

Walau seorang hatiku riang

Bunga di taman segar indah

Sehingga kumbang hanti gundah

Kalaulah hati ingin menyunting

Jangan dinanti bertukar musim

Gitar berbunyi malam sunyi

Aku menyanyi seorang diri

Bulan mengambang cahaya terang

Walau seorang hatiku senang

Teaching Is Not Easy

I still remember when I first start teaching BM2K class early this month. I teach Malay Language subject for Primary 2 students. I never thought that it was going to be so damn hard for me to do so. Well, maybe everyone will say, "Only BM what? What so hard about it?" I use to think and say the same thing last time. But hey, you need to experience it on your own then you know how hard it turn out to be. I almost cry on my first day teaching. OMG!!!! 3.5 hours feels like forever. The whole time during the class, all I have in my mind is go to see the principal and told her that I cannot stand them and I cannot handle them. I want to quit straight away or I'm going to die soon because of the naughty and rebellious students. *sigh*

So, after the class finished, I got a chance to meet the principal on the stairways. She's standing there to bid everyone a goodbye. I told her I want to see her right away but she told me that she'll be very late since she need to walk around and check on every class. Considering the time is 6.30pm already, so she ask me to stop by next Tuesday since Monday is Public Holiday. Frustrated, I promised her that I'll see her next week, Tuesday. When Tuesday came, I totally forgot about meeting her since I'm busy with my new project and cracking my head over the design. For the previous week, I ask for substituion for my class. I fall sick. Just then I feel that, I miss my students. Craps isn't it? You want to stop doing the job but out of a sudden you miss them. Ironic. That's when I decide, I shouldn't stop teaching just because I cannot stand them. They're infact adorable. I had 12 students. I remember all of them and their name too. Most of all, there's 2 very bright student, I don't think they need the tuition class after all compare to other students. Darren and Jared. Both caught my attention since the first class.

Darren is very bright and clever, but dear GOD, he's too much for me sometimes. He's so damn rebellious. The fact that he's so clever, he finish his work very fast and never consider anyone else. He will shout at me and say that I'm very slow where I have to wait for everyone to finish to proceed with the lesson. When I ignore his protest, he will do something at the back to attract everyone's attention. He will come to the front and mess around with chalks and blackboard. He somehow became one of the reason why I want to quit the job in the first hand. I cannot stand him. He's far too much. But then, despite of him being so rebelious and naughty and protesting all the time, he is cute. To be honest, he's adorable. It just he need something to control his manner a bit. Control his rebeliousness a bit. Next time, I plan to bring extra work for him to keep him busy while I can guide a weaker students. Not that I'm ignoring him just because he's clever, but I need to keep him occupied with something which is good for himself and in the same time, he will give me chance to guide other students who's need the lesson more than him. What should I do to keep him busy? He can read well, write well and speak damn well even though he's a chinese. That is one thing that make Darren a special student.

He can speak Malay very well and if don't know he's a chinese and don't look at his face, you probably think that he is a Malay or any Bumiputra students. Ok, let's stop stop talking about Darren, now it's Jared's turn. Jared is so sweet. He's naughty but he's obedient. He's clever but he's patient and will ask lots of question when he finish with his work. I like Jared personally. He's cute and adorable in his own way. One bad thing about him, it seems like a problem for him to speak Malay even though he can do all the work I gave to him perfectly. Overall and everything, Jared is the best in the class.

Hmm... Last week, I go teaching for second time. I don't feel like I want to quit anymore. I love them all. And I meet someone's new. His name is Aniq. He's obedient and as adorable as Jared. That's when I decide, I'm going to teach them until the year is through and will decide again wether I'll come back for next year or not. But that is still way too long. :) After BM class on Saturday, I get another offer from another tuition centre to teach Additional Math. I give it a thought for quite sometimes cause honestly, I had no confident in teaching Add Math. I will choose Modern Math instead of Add Math, and you know what, I even bought myself a Modern Math reference book for my own self preparation. Dear God, that book seems to be useless now. I've been offered to teach Add Math. Well, last week, I gave it a try. What I can say is, it wasn't as bad as I think of. Of course during the 3hrs class I got stuck and did several mistakes for a few times. But thank God, I manage to get it through. Besides, my students understand that I'm still new and might be a bit nervous to teach. I even confess to them that I never study AddMath for few years already. I'm so glad that I can make it.

Well, what I can say here is, "Nothing is easy if you don't really give your heart into it". And nothing is going to be easy for the first time. Just that, the willingness to do it. :)

#30 Kimmy's Menu, want to tapau for dinner

#31 Reread Cinta Sang Ratu, to find some important line in it

#32 I had no idea I fall in love over and over again at this pearl bracelet

#33 My pics for today in the office =.=

Long Absence

Lately, I barely had a time to rest. And have been neglected my Project 365. So, here's the update.

# My "i'm sorry face" ... haha

#25 My Eternity Moment :)

#26 Ming's Cafe, frustrated, the waiter forgot my lamb chop

#Back from Ming's and try my new dress, hehe

#27 My students during their recess time, all gone

#28 Just realize at attendance list, it was my name on it

#29 Fall sick terribly yesterday. My antibiotic.

Things Happen In Our Life

We always been adviced to FORGIVE & FORGET.

Yup, I know, it's not easy to just forgive and forget. Seldom we can't find a better words to say. Seldom we seems to search for unfound words which is yet to be formed and yet to be understood. You just don't know and just don't know how to express it out.

Well, I still keep a SMS for Lai. He send it to me as a New Year wish. I found it very meaningful.

"Life is short, break the rules, forgive and forget quickly, love truly, laugh uncontrollably, and never regret anything that made you smile."

Sometimes, we just keep some words deep inside our heart for fear that we might hurt anyone. Sometimes, we just keep on telling ourselves, it's OK for me being hurt alone, rather than hurting someone else.

And sometimes, we have to forgive because we can't just live alone. Then we forgive and forget, this is life and this is what happens.

I even heard that from Muslim's friend, when you had a fight with anyone on day time, forgive and forget before the sun set and if you had a fight on night time, forgive and forget before the sun rise.

You must be wondering why I talk lots about forgive and forget today. It just that we had a constant fight during day time and night time. Yeah right, that is due to my unstablization of hormones in my system. Been fighting the unstabalization so bad sometime where I end up being sick and so exhausted. It was a big fight. I even think of doing stupid things. But then, when I manage to cool down, I feel so stupid of starting such a fight. Then I called him, make a peachful conversation and ask for our previous plan to go shopping for my birthday present. :) We're fine before the sun set that day. At night we argue again, but I just can't keep the argument so long, before morning, we're fine again. :) xoxo.

Guess what, I get Calvin Klein Eternity Moment Eau de Parfum Spray, 100ml. :) Free miniature of CK Eternity Classic which I want and love too but don't have a 100ml bottle. I get free CK One men's perfume (miniature one) and Euphoria For Women (miniature) as well. :) And RM30.00 voucher. Hihihihi.... Thanks so much. :) xoxo. Hope this moment will last for eternity... :)

#24 I wear this shoes yesterday, causing my feet to blister :(

Below is what Nic did with our work software. :p He did the same thing last year which is too bad I didn’t keep it. :( But never mind, this year it will be here in this blog. :) Nic is very good in doing design. Just have a look at his blog. I love Fanshuzai. It’s super super cute. He send me that file consist of those words, “Happy Birthday ‘09” with a title of his project which I get involve sometimes in the past. When I received it, I was like, “HUH??? What the heck? I didn’t involve in the project anymore, why send me some file about that project?” :p Well, what else could you think when you’re in the middle of cracking your head to solve some design problem. :p Thanks Nic. :)

Look at Fanshuzai below, isn't it cute? :p Now you can see how good Nic is in doing art piece. :)


So, that's all for today. :) Lots of love and hugs and kisses. :)

I Want To Be A Vampire :p

#22 My Stationery Case in the office :)

I'm old. That's the first thing I had in mind when I wake up yesterday. Ing Ing send a message to me to wish me happy birthday and I this what I replied her, I don't want this day to come, it make me feel older. :p And she replied me back, haiya... It's the day that prove you're becoming more attractive. HUH????!!! It sort of make me laugh. :p Thanks Ing, you're so sweet. :p

#23 Caramel Cheese Cake :)

Ok, let's forget about that. :) Last night we had a diner at Secret Recipe. :) Thanks to Alvin when he cancelled his band practice just to give me face for a dinner on my birthday. :) But he don't give me face when I try to candid his pic smoking there. :p Haha. Nevermind, I will still post his pic here. :p

I had grilled black pepper chicken. Not bad, hehe. But I still prefer Alfresco's chicken chop. :)

Below is my Green Apple juice with sour plum. It so damn sweet, but tasty. Yummy Yummy... At the back is Alvin's Watermelon juice.

Owh... What a mess. :p Three of us share one caramel cheese cake and one black forest cake. Maybe we're too full that's why we can't finish the cake. :p

Well, I'm older. Duh, that's why I told Alvin, I want to be a vampire and stop aging now. Haha. Hey you guys out there, I want to be a vampire and I need lots of blood. Hahaha :p Just kidding. Hehe. I'm old, SO WHAT? :)

Randomly on weekend

Last Friday, I had dinner with Alvin. We go to Ocean King. :) It just 2 of us, but we ordered steam fish (wish you can see below), sea cucumber soup, baby kailan and lemon chicken. Isn't that a bit crazy? Haha. Yup, I know its lot. And you guessed right. :p We couldn’t finish them all. :p When I think back about all the left foods, I’m hungry.

#19 Steam Fish For Diner at Ocean King

After diner, I send Alvin back. Asked him to go to Alfresco (cause Tomy did ask me want to go out hang out there or not), but he say he's sick and just want to rest at home. Ok, after that, I go to Alfresco and meet up with Tomy, Nic and Chris there. Picture below is Nic and Chris. :p

One interesting thing about Alfresco that night is, they had this show, jugling the bottle and blow the fire. Haha. I didn't know what is the name of the show but it was entertaining. COOL!!! :)

The next day, it was a complete hang over. I don't have to explain. :p Sort of fall sick. :(

#20 Hot Chocolate at Starbuck with Qoryanti

Yesterday, I go to Kuala Baram and transport things from Kuala Baram. It was a complete a busy day, where I end up have to cancel my tuition class. :(

#21 Another hang out day with Qory at Kuala Baram

Looking at the boat, I want to go back home. :(

Life Is Too Ironic

#17 My hand and ceiling lamp

#18 I watch Dragonball yesterday

I’ll see rainbow after the damn perfect storm.

That’s what I always told myself. That’s the main reason why I still standing here. Maybe I’m pretending. And maybe I’m hypocrite. So what? I have no right to drag everyone into my miseries. I can expect them to understand that I’m not happy, but I can’t expect them to cry along with me. And sometimes, I really wish the water that can make you forget does really exist. The water that can make you forget all the things you don’t want to remember. Things that are hurt, things that scare you off each and everyday and things that make you worry. I know this water will never exist, but out of my stupidity and being desperate, I dearly wish it do really exist. Yes, I’m desperate for it. Or sometimes, I just wish that when I go to sleep, someone will come into my dream and tell me what’s best for me to do for my life and everyone else.

If you and I were never meant to be together, why do we have to meet each other? Why do we have to fall in love? Why do we have to try to be together? Do we call it, we love each other enough to let each other go? Dear God, why life is so ironic? Please give me one good reason to believe in it because I truly can’t understand this.

#16

#16 Add Math Text Book and Reference Book

Long Weekend

#11 : Another wedding invitation

Selamat Pengantin Baru Antasya & Helmi

I had a long weekend last week. On friday, I was on MC. :( Go to office for a while in the morning but cannot do anything cause internet was down. In here, if internet down, that's mean no work for us. After a while in the office, shiver a bit and running nose and head ache, ask for permission to go back and go to clinic. There I go, been sleeping all day until almost dinner time. Wake up and get ready to go out for dinner. Didn't know what I had in mind when I wore sleeveless shirt and short pant. Shiver all evening. Spoil the purpose of going out to choose new shoes for me as a birthday present and asking to go back home as soon as possible cause I can't stand being cold in the shopping complex any longer. End up with us eat our dinner fast and end up for me being lectured why on earth I dress that way when obviously I know I'm not a good health. *sigh* ok, my bad. I know. :( Reach home, take my meds and sleep again. Seems like most of my hours during weekend is for sleeping.

#12 Full Moon that night. :p

#13 Beautiful numbers on my car meter :)

#14 It's a LIMO... :p

#15 Whole stack of exercise need to mark. =.=

My Best Friend's Wedding Invitation

I've received a lot of wedding invitation from my ex-classmates during my university years back in Malacca. Too bad I can't go to any of it. All I can do is sending a regards and my wish of CONGRATULATION on their wedding.

Among all invitation, this invitation is one of most I really feel bad to turn down. :( This is wedding invitation of Noor Atikah and Zaimi. Atikah is my room mate since the first day until last day of university year. And the relationship she had with Zaimi, I'm the reason behind it. :) Zaimi is her first love and glad they end it with a marriage. Last time, she always talk about Zaimi and until one day, I playfully shout out loud to Zaimi, "You know what, Atikah likes you." :p haha... I was bad and everyone know I talk about anything with everyone last time. :p That simple statement from me somehow start their relationship. Hahaha. And it last until today. :)

Atikah and me have been good friend ever since we start our university year until our very last day. We've been so close cause we share the same interest. EAT. :) Eat a lot and eat a lot of spicy food. We both chew on fresh 'cili padi' with out meal. Eat at any time of the day. Even if it was 2am in the morning. We eat a lot but gain very little weight until our other room mates and housemates later call us 'anak jin'. :p haha... Common line from Tun, our housemate who live at the room nearby kitchen, "2 orang anak jin makan lagi... Tak kenyang-kenyang lagi ke? " :p

We still keep in touch with each other even though we never met each other after convocation in 2006. I always miss her. Now that she want get married, I feel so sad that I can't attend the wedding. :( I still remember last time I told her, I'll be there when you get married but in the end I can't be there. I hope lightning will strike on me for cannot keep on my promise. :( We always talk on phone and work out on activity what we want to do before her wedding day. We'll eat all day and wear pretty and beautifully tailored cloth to make sure we catch every eyes on that special day. Sadly, that's not going to be done. :('.


All that I can do is pray they will be with each other until they're very very old. Have lot of kids and grandchildren. :)

SELAMAT PENGANTIN BARU TIKAH & PAK TAM (that's what we call Zaimi)


#10 Bored and play card all by myself